Good afternoon, dear friends!
It’s definitely a fall day here in Nebraska. The wind is blowing & it’s cold. Burrr. On a happy note, it’s scarf weather for sure.
Last night, after getting caught up with all the laundry [5 loads!!] and getting the house put back to normal after a day of kiddos running around, I felt completely defeated.
My oldest and I were not seeing eye to eye. Yelling & tears from both of us happened. And then hugs, more tears and I’m sorry’s.
You guys. Parenting is hard.
I know I’m not doing everything “right,” but who can?! I’m literally living on a prayer and hoping God helps me make the right choices.
I absolutely hate when I have to yell. It reminds me of when my mom used to yell at us. It wasn’t good if it got to that point. I knew we had hurt her feelings and I hated when that happened.
Here’s what I need to do:
I need to figure out how to be less OCD. I know I’m super crazy about things being picked up & in the right place. It’s a terrible habit I would love to not have.
I need to learn to not let my temper rise so fast. Why does it get out of hand so quickly? Why can’t I just let things slide? Kids are kids. Let them be kids for crying out loud!
I also need to not let my anxiety take over. When that happens I find myself losing all control of the day. Come on self, pull yourself together!
Maybe I should say yes to everything for a week and see how it goes. That sounds crazy though huh?!
At the end of the day, I’m so thankful for my two girls and the life we have. The good Lord made me a mom for a reason…
Maybe I was made a mom to learn to slow down. Not take everything so seriously. Not get so caught up in my OCD brain. Enjoy the giggles and the tears.
Easier said than done, but it’s worth a try.
If anyone has ideas or words of wisdom to share, I’m all ears. This life is about bettering who you are. So I need to figure out how to be a better mom & human all around.
Take a deep breathe mama bear, you’re doing the best you can.