Spring break is finally here and the sun is shining, tricking us to think that it’s actually warm outside. I do think there is a light at the end of this winter tunnel though.
With the warm weather slowly approaching, I got kind of anxious yesterday about my body. So I thought it was time to be transparent and truthful [more for myself than anything.]
I scrolled through my photos for a good hour, judging myself last night. Why!!! Why do I get so hard on myself?
I found these photos from two years ago. My youngest was roughly a month old and I was the heaviest I’ve ever been [not pregnant.]
The girl in these photos was so unhappy, feeling unworthy and struggled daily to look in the mirror. I remember not wanting to go in public, because I didn’t want to have to wear “real” clothes.
I remember finally deciding to join a gym in August that year and had made a promise to myself to never look back. I had to be healthy and strong on the inside and outside for my two girls. I also wanted to feel good in my own skin again.
Mia turns two next week and I have to say, I have come a long way.
My goals have changed some since starting this transformation. My goal at first was to be thin. That number on the scale mattered so much. I wanted to have my body back from before my second child.
Nevermind that! Now, I’m all about gaining muscles and curves. I want to see my strong arms, booty gains, leg muscles annnnd those abs that will eventually show through again.
Strong is the new thin. When my daughter tells me my muscles are big, that makes me feel beautiful and confident.
As far as my mind goes, I’ve told you all about that struggle and the journey I’ve been on. That part has come a long way as well.
For me, they go hand in hand. I struggle some days with my mind and in turn, I’m mad at my body. It happens. But I know now to take a minute, say a quick prayer and forgive myself.
Changes don’t happen overnight and it’s hard to not get frustrated when you don’t see them right away. That’s what photos are for.
No matter what your goals are, stick with it. Keep grinding and pushing yourself harder each day. Do not give up!
That may take time, but I believe in you.